I woke up this morning feeling the effects of a short night sleep. I “seemed” to be groggy and tired. Then I check my emails to find out that our dear friend who has terminal cancer is on morphine. To add more onto a “seemingly” groggy sadness, my husband and I had a challenging conversation. In my feeble attempt to hold it all together, I ended up on the floor in the teacher’s room, having a complete coming-apart – which looked like a total crying meltdown. One of our cultural principles we practice in our Batiste communities is “being for others” and coincidentally it was our team-building intention set forth for the day. One of the other senior teachers Mark White sat down with me in the staff room and listened generously to me while I unloaded it all and then some.
He reminded me of the importance to feel the pain I was in. Once I cleared what was present for me with him, I got clear. I realized it was possible to create joy, which was my commitment for the day. In order to bring that forth, I needed to walk through the emotional fire then choose to give up feeling sorry for myself and anticipating the future. Through the morning meditation, sharing with my partner and our asana practice I was able to come back to the power and beauty of the now moment. I felt the support of the entire Baptiste Immersion and the energy lightened and lifted me. Now it seems like I have “JOY”. I am very grateful to all of you who are here to celebrate our love of this practice and life.